Sorting Season

This winter has been a season of sorting. A time of gathering and picking through items, weighing their usefulness, condition, necessity, and then piling them to keep, or donate or to discard. Small kitchen appliances, articles of clothing, papers, decor, dishes, so many things to sort. As I handle each, I survey it and ask,  “is it as valuable as the space it keeps in my home?”  It’s a daunting task. But seeing bare space in a cupboard or drawer gives me so much satisfaction.  I read a few articles about “Swedish Death Cleaning”. Despite its ominous name, it’s just a practice of sorting and  weeding out one’s belongings to ease the burden on your children or carers when you become unable to perform that task, yourself.    I’m slowly coming to the realization, that my “treasures” are not always treasured by my progeny.  Cutesy clutter may not be met with the same enthusiasm as I had while collecting it. Therefore, distribution to people who will treasure your clutter should happen sooner, rather than later. It should be given to those who do find value in it. One’s loyalty to you as a human or family member, isn’t transferred to your stuff at the time of death. More than likely…. those items go to them with a certain amount of guilt, dread and resentment because of the impossibility of finding room for all of it.  That’s worth remembering.

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And soon it will be spring…

Mother nature is giving us tantalizing glimpses of warmer temperature, blue sky and mud to remind us, that soon the earth will thaw, the skies will warm and all the little green things will sprout forward. The temporary “death” will give way to healing and growth and the return of the growing season.  I too will undergo an anniversary in early March. It will mark one full year of holidays, birthdays, weather, and life, without Lyle. Is it too cliche to say it feels like a lifetime ago?   Im not going to lie, I dread this anniversary. Its just another notch on my belt of “withouts”…but I suppose it stands in testament to my ability to “make it”. I didn’t want to be strong, but its just required during grief.  People tell you how strong you are, despite feeling broken and exhausted. 

I decided to maybe do some short day trips or even an overnight trip to mark the occasion. See something new, try something new…grow in some way. Growth is important in spring. It reminds you that while it aches without Lyle, I am alive…and it is spring…its time to sprout a bit.🌱